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by Gabriel Drozdov

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1.
Mason, could you put it down? I've heard enough in our quiet town Do you know the rules? Mason, could you go away To some place where I’ll never see you again Do you know the rules? Because you can drink out of a toilet You can look through black and white eyes You can peer into the vacuum And never see the sunrise
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[Instrumental]
3.
She hides it from me Puts it in a closet Her animals and fiction cover up I thought I woke up That I was awake now But these bruises don’t hurt enough She turns on a faucet Takes off her clothes And tries to relax alone I wouldn't know I watched them kill it Stab it politely But what did it do to them? I thought I had it Before they killed me But what did I deserve? She eats caviar Drives in her car To a job that keeps her awake I wouldn't know
4.
Forever 09:01
Now that I've checked myself twice as often I've come to realize what’s in my subconscious For she is setting out of my home And I think that I heard her name in the Bible Eerie as it may seem, I think I’m smiling Whatever could make me this virile? For she is setting out of my home And I think I heard her name in the Bible They don’t see me anymore They won’t see me anymore And I can’t see the sea It’s been years Maybe I saw something different when I was with you And all I know went up in flames And all I showed retired last Saturday We’re coming up to a different place I've tried to stay away from stupid thoughts We’re coming up to a different place I've tried to stay away from stupid thoughts I know I love her She’s I don’t know
5.
Never have I closed my eyes To look into the face of my own rights He was a lowly puppeteer (Who lived in Pianosa) Afraid he’d get too old but there’s always hope How could he be wrong? How could he be wrong? I’m not one to believe or restate the basic facts I would love you here but I guess that we’re friends I try and try to pick the fallen pieces I took a picture of the movements that seemed so real He had rules for when he moved without a body Sometimes a crumbling wall should fall on its side And when the strings were cut he fell to the floor But stood quickly and laughed it off Took a trip to the Arctic (Where no one’s ever home) Took a trip to the sun (Where it can get so cold) Took a lap around the equator and felt the glow Made a map of the unknown I can’t wait to be dead (Everything around me is a part of me) I’m distracted
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[Instrumental]
7.
To Home 06:49
To home I was an outside, just an influence Was right when I sought the market, for once I was a little sad But who knows that it’s clouded in madness With the world that made this kid Maybe not, maybe forgiveness Confused and burdened by a dad I’m not used to being relaxed Or having so much free time on my hands I can’t fit into a neat little language, oh no Couldn't you just take me home? All these lives I thought I was someone else Never once was I myself Come to me, give me a chance to do something with my life I promise that I’ll make it right this time Give me a sign, I need some relief I have no idea why I’m feeling down I’m slowly dying and all my friends do is aggravate And none of them can see what’s in my head To question what’s real is an impossible For we must realize irrationality can control Harmony is only an old soul To home, I headed late that day I’m a creature, different inside Wearing what I gave myself in a past life I realize that I've been away for a long time But I still love you, and I've really tried All these lives I thought I was someone else Never once was I myself Come to me, give me a chance to do something with my life I promise that I’ll make it right this time
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In a Cloud 07:44
I have been an ass again, a silent wall in a sulking land You put on me an established way A dream or place in someone’s state With a walk, I can’t see the breaks Within a wind or twist ahead, a naked way on older paths Do I have rights, can I feel a pinch? Has she something warm that I can move in? With this friend, I can see within a cloud What does this mean to me? How many times can I fall down, And forget where I started out Someday they’ll see A thought a way a lone a loft Which path fits my mind? Who has read the art on the radio’s time? For a while, contracting a disease Inside a hiding point under the sea On a little tombstone I read out loud: “Is anybody watching me?” Maybe not my dear, maybe you have friends But I wouldn't know what happens at your end I do feel that thing you call love Connecting takes some time, persistence is the key There is no relation between a rock and the sea I envy what happiness you must know within a cloud Why do I get up? How many times must we interact, Until we can consider ourselves as facts Whatever you may feel I've always felt inside But just as you throw it out I find it best to hide For a while, contracting a disease But I’m secure throughout history A piece of paper that says it’s my relief But I’m still can’t see who’s following me In a cloud In a cloud
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Estate 04:50
Hate, how do you stay in shape? I've got splinters from my wooden wings They asked me to change but I couldn't change Is this lesson just a joke? Well, you almost had me Change, I’ll give you change I’ll take your past and rearrange I’ll destroy all that makes you sane Soon you’ll be one of the same Everyday, I walk up to my estate With looking glass eyes coming down the same And I put everything back into place So that I can finally feel safe Everyday, at the corner, the everyman takes his place Staring down into windows, looking for a catalyst to hate Everyday, I’m feeling lonely, putting out for this estate But I've only seen the obvious, the bills without the change Change, I’ll give you change I’ll take your past and rearrange I’ll destroy all that makes you sane Soon you‘ll be one of the same One of the same!
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Atlanta 04:32
Out there, there’s a crippled corrupted veteran Out there, where they store the rest of us Out there, in the uninhabited territory That’s where I will rust Out there, where the prostitutes live as people Out there, where trees change from red to green Out there, there’s an ignorant teenage delinquent That’s where I will rust Please let me stay in your heart Out there, in the cold, rocky mountains Those who deserve trouble sell it to the trust Out there, where we learn our weakness That’s where I will rust Out there, they got the story wrong Out there, they laugh at dance and song Out there, there’s a thousand people the same as me That’s where I will rust Please let me stay in your heart Please let me stay in your heart
11.
I’m sick of the information Spirals in my head Glued to the fever Glued to my bed My life is a nervous twitch I can’t seem to get the hang of it Far away, far away Tickles me a little to pull me under and show me its face Still no one knows of what I am or what I mean I’m a little hung over from these friendly things With blistering hello pairs and Steinway’s own grace Nocturnal emissary from France or outer space And who even knows what you've done to your poor face I’m excited for this new thing, don’t you think it’ll be great? Such a lovely town with so many nice wives And their husbands to match their stereotypical lives And I found it so old so I tore it all down I removed all the sex scenes and gave them a script Why did we start the guns? Why am I being shot? Who knows better than God? I’m a pacifist but I will shut you up And please recognize me when I get up I can’t know the bounty if the killer won’t exist It’s not about reality but his decisions Tell me or don’t, I still won’t give a damn My life is a nervous twitch I can’t seem to get rid of it
12.
Well, you can’t tell us apart Like the night, we come from the dark And like static we distort, outside In the fright of our lives we ignite Well, these black keys suspend, these pictures amuse My happiness days are filled with noise I’m feeling that I have sickness That won’t take no for an answer In the fright of our lives we ignite I don’t understand anything
13.
I’m feeling dark and dreary today Might as well go away I’ll kill myself and make someone’s day I’m an idiot, I’m a fool But I’d never make myself someone’s tool I’m stupid, clumsy, a dumb fuck Moving back and forth because I’m out of luck You think I need help, you lucky bastard It’s harder than you think, I don’t like to think I don’t need help from any jackass A fool who laughs at a show that’s obviously staged I’m full of hate I’m full of hate Pretty hate I love to hate
14.
Crossword puzzles seem to occupy my days Staring out the window into a haze I’m getting older but I don’t know what age I should stop To give myself some time to think Before I was young Wanting to be with her, my love But, O, how things have changed Erase my age I deserve an upgrade, a push in class I deserve to be remembered, have my head displayed in glass I want to mean something to everyone I’ve known and didn’t get to know I want a second chance Like the kid out of college Like the kid, divorced, unloved Erase my age Erase my age
15.
Flourish 04:40
How was I so uninformed at this point in my life? How could I sleep with ball and chain without noticing a thing? My story’s so far now but I promise that it’s true If I were lying then I wouldn't be here with you My story’s been in the making, my whole life up to now But now I don’t know when or why or how Flourish so neatly, so truly To lie in waste is what I want to dream Repeat and repeat again This world is my demo, I haven’t yet grown old My bones don’t ache with drugs and shakes that keep me de la fleur I’m haunted by superstition that taunts me by the door I don’t know what I’m running from or what they’re looking for I've looked at life a thousand times but it never looked so old It’s given me a taste for love and I still just don’t know I've sought a truth so far beneath, my friends will never see Yet I've come away alive! I know it all and no one knows but me Flourish so neatly, so truly To lie in waste is what I want to dream Repeat and repeat again
16.
We are heading out before the storm And she is giving out her vitals like a whore This girl is so sure that she’s willing to pull it out But her body likes to keep itself warm I can’t assume anything about you but if I sat still and paid attention I might learn something new These pretty colors and your soft sweet voice produce such a sense of something I can’t withstand my cries But now I don’t know why and I don’t know how to make myself take form Or write lines to keep myself in shape These standard walls are attracting dust and there is no time to fix them And none of these laws could ever exist I’ll play my part I can’t wait, can’t shake off this dreaded feel Controlled by the reason of a rational man in an irrational world Riverrun on the killer’s side, he’s hatching a plan, he’s marking a map But I’ll never be scared for my life I don’t know why they tried to teach you, it’s a sorry face, a sorry face And I don’t know why they lied so often You have stains running down your cheeks, to your pretty smile, to your hungry mouth Whose tongue is often told to please Please make sense of distant planes and transport on the new airways We finally found peace inside, no longer caught but petrified Who knew we could fly so fast and get so far but not outlast We can’t be left alone I’ll play my part This is my final stand to the world And they say I’m all in my low-hung head Or at least they would
17.
Grizzly Bear 03:33
[Instrumental]
18.
Decider 04:55
I must confess that I am not in love I can honestly say that I am not in love Maybe I was never in love Maybe I never felt love Maybe I never had love
19.
Let the back corner make a mistake, but I don’t know O, it’s any day, and the kids are getting off on their telephones “Get a girlfriend!” they would say, but I don’t know I guess they just won’t give me stereo Now— I can’t learn her history and science iff you don’t Let me screen it first in our time, leaning left and right There’s a picture of someone I once knew With the waves coming at his waist He would always tell great jokes Oh god— oh no— We, in our existing state, are destined to flourish In the coupled minds of science and religion A portion of an ability As realized for itself The anticipation of unrequited information Withstanding the rising technological rate That stands as a revolutionary aspect Time has no successor
20.
Sure 04:05
When I opened up my mouth and water rushed in I was amazed! They found fossils They put me in a room and gave me headphones I was okay, I had a minute to myself So I said sure What does that make me? Have you understood me or am I another world? How lucky I am! All points beside me Who is my own? As light reaches this place So I said sure What does that make me? Have you understood me or am I another world? How lucky I am! All points beside me Who is my own?
21.
More 03:45
Now I could’ve sworn that I had this before A means to the coast ahead Stem broken lives are figments Life figs, dessert, extra then dead We could’ve worked on then stated terms Reality with orifices How we spoke out of our solid shell! And it wisp-like took to bend of bay Only directed by the way What I am sure of, I’m sure Taken, taken, lead with Lydian Proven often that it must stay warm At a place like the burn Leveled by the willing of the storm If it’s right, it’s forever Only untied at its horns To kick your feathers A down, riverrun, an oak-o-broken Can collapse-sand. Leading kiss. Silt and severed hand. Fragmental understand, no task. No tax in-den head.
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Mushroom 06:49
And they’re so glad to miss you That they've seemed to miss your checking of the time This has been such a busy life With little holding it to its metaphorical crises There’s so much to be developed And no one to take care of glass What’s past is not a weapon What’s red is not for children Who have gone abruptly to the pacific Where the south shore hides in the haze I can see you by looking through glass But not without my window You could shoot me in the eyes And that might help Soon I’ll be desensitized I am only in my mind And I don’t think that God likes my type I’m too nonchalant And I think that I've found a girl whose words I can hear Because I taste her like medicine on my taste buds I guess you could say we’re similar In that we can only see in pictures and colors We balance out the columns But soon, as usual, predicted, protected I won’t be able to feel her I can see you by looking through glass But not without my window You could stick needles into my eyes And that might help Soon I’ll be desensitized Or I could just have my life

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A concept album about Mason and Erin. The story is told through five parts and eighteen songs from Mason's perspective.

The last four songs make up an EP called "More".

The parts are as follows:
ONE — tracks 1-3
TWO — tracks 4-6
THREE — tracks 7-10
FOUR — tracks 11-14
FIVE — tracks 15-18
MORE — tracks 19-22

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released May 19, 2014

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